A notebook begins in the present but immediately becomes a record of what is passing. It gathers unfinished thoughts, missing years, private arguments and words addressed to people who may never read them.
These photographs observe people writing in public while remaining absorbed in an interior space. Faces recede and language approaches visibility without becoming fully available. The pages show thought being formed rather than simply preserved: sentences repeat, change direction, are crossed out or left unresolved.
The notebook becomes a place where memory encounters its gaps and where absent people and structures can be addressed. It holds what cannot be recovered, what cannot be said aloud, and what has not yet found its final form.
12.2.24
I’m not the least bit concerned
with recapping what has essentially
been an undocumented three years
give/take. [If?] I give that a go I’ll get fired & discouraged from
writing again. Starting a new notebook
& the [obscured]
[obscured] twentyone
Melbourne [obscured]
Rules. Rules are a form of domination
Parents lacking emotional intelligence
Causing trauma
Is lacking emotional intelligence linked to
Judging and creating rules for others
defining them as good or bad. [Derating?]
their will to do and be.
(Authority figures)
[crossed out] should be providing rules that ensure
Safety, not Fear. Healing Someone as a person
that needs room for growth and to do and
be just like ourselves, no matter the age.
Everyone should be respecting giving space for
each if we want a peaceful society.
TRUE Authority figures know the difference
between protection and Domination. Defense
and attack. [crossed out] Everything wants it’s space
well being Nurtured. Everything is legal except that
of which harms others.
Dominators (Bullies) try to control and
regulate the Environment with force. This takes
up more space than needed in a Community
and makes community members Feel
He cannot be and do with the dominator.
The dominator is controlled by fear, and is
convinced that Fear is good and god.
Dominators try to force rules about how
people in the community should think, feel,
do, and be. Dominators want to define
what truth is. Fear which is something thats
nothing, wants to be everything. Nothing wants
to be everything. Fear exists because it can.
Perfectly natural. Fearlessness is the ultimate
Perfection. Fear wants to be the thing it absolutly
is not. Fear wants to be everywhere and
normalized as the ultimate Peace. Fear
creates Separation. Therefore, we should connect
and create Creation. who decides who is
the enforcer of rules and who decides what
those rules are? Who are the dominators of our
Society and who gives them power? Who are the
enforcers of fear and anxiety? Who are the teachers
of domination. Who are those who Judge and [crossed out]
discriminate? Who are those whom are suffering
from their own minds? Whom are the teachers of
fear and Anxiety? of whom [crossed out/illegible] these are in our
Society and how does society’s members feel about them..
The insecure enable Dominators, however the secure break
them d[obscured]
